by Quin
07 Jul 2012 18:59 (updated 07 Jul 2012 18:59) | 0 comment(s)
I have absolutely no idea what's going on in my life anymore.
Jenna came over for her cooking lesson. Things were really going well. The food was prepped perfectly. It was smelling so good. And then it ended up on the floor, all over Jenna and even on me. I think I burned my hands catching a fresh from the burner pot but that wasn't an issue or anything. All of that was actually fun.
There's the fact that I kissed her. That I really kissed her. I asked permission first but I still did it. It was right before the full moon and all I could think about was her. Her beauty, the wonderful scent she carries, how much I just wanted to kiss her. I let it win. I don't think she complained though. I hope not. I really hope she doesn't get upset at me for it.
She used the shower to clean up. That's not an issue. It isn't as if we don't have plenty of extra towels and whatnot. I guess she went into Chance's room to change and he walked in on he while she was wearing a towel. I don't see what the issue is but she did, and that's what matters. She ran out. I couldn't face her because I feel like it's my fault. I always tend to screw things up.
I saw her on the holiday. I nearly didn't go due to the full moon the night before. I showed up and some cousin of Chance's was a total tool. I'm pretty sure I at least fractured his jaw, maybe caused him a tooth or two. And he deserved it. No one deserves to be treated as he treated everyone. I don't care if he's mean to me, but he seemed to try and suck up to me. I don't know if it's my muscles or who I am. I'm depending on the latter, and that just plain pisses me off. By the time I dove into the water to get Jenna out I was just done. I got her on the boat and things seemed to be settled but then it seemed as if the boat was spitting water at us.
I don't even know how to describe all of that. Nearly naked Jenna, upset Jenna, upset Shiv, asshole insulting everyone. Jenna's an empath which means her brother probably is. (I need to talk to the Prof. about that to find out more.) Lake rain wasn't magic, was something else. Jenna tended to ignore everything that happened. I feel asleep. It all seems like a blur. So much happened and yet I couldn't really do much about it at all. I should speak with Shiv. I really should talk to Jenna.
Ended up getting some cream to help my scar. Purposely waited until after the full moon because I didn't want to be tempted to do anything too unlike me around Kay. I'm pretty sure she was flirting with me. I also think she likes touching my chest. I don't understand that but I won't argue. For some unknown reason I invited her to Vegas and she actually agreed. So she'll be my date, so to speak. I both like this idea and think it's bad at the same time.
Some vampire gave her a card for a security company I've never heard of and said she can get in touch with the Alpha that way. That doesn't sound right at all. I'll investigate that when I get back from Vegas. Just in case. I don't want to miss the game.
She followed me to work. And stayed the whole night. The entire night. I think I dropped her off at her home at around seven am. The guys were extremely jealous. I have to admit that she was looking really good. I can't tell if I really like her or if it's just a physical attraction. This werewolf male versus female thing. But I really do enjoy being around her.
I don't think Jenna and I are dating. I don't know if we are or not. It's confusing. It's not like I know what people are supposed to do when they date. But I started to try and be committed even if I probably shouldn't have. That's what it means when people kiss, isn't it? I'd ask Chance but he'd laugh at me. I just need to know where I stand so I don't do anything to hurt anyone. The last thing I want to do is hurt anyone.
I should talk to Jenna.
